I most certainly did not win any awards for personality, patience or parenting today. Today was one of those days where at one point I took a deep breath and actually thought to myself...'I would not anything to do with you right now.' In a span of 4 hours I:
- Completely broke New Years Resolution #3
- Cursed my job (yes - the job I previously stated I LOVE)
- Yelled at my 6 year old with such wrath even I surprised myself (and our handyman who unannounced to me was in the house and witnessed the entire thing)
- Cried over a PowerPoint (which lets face it...should just never happen)
- Scared every living creature in this house - human and animal alike - OUT of the house
I once received a gift from a former coworker that to this day, I frequently use. A book of quotes all around finding calm. And after I managed to successfully complete all of the above, I took a look inside and found the following quote:
I'm not proud of myself today but this is where this blog is already proving to be quite therapeutic. Why? Because I also realized tonight that I'm human and everything above is going to happen sometimes. Crisis, in so many forms, is a daily existence and sometimes I get so wrapped up in those moments of stress and passion and frustration, I lose sight of reality.
Now it doesn't provide an excuse to go all BCC* on everyone, but it did provide me the opportunity to take a step back and make the following corrections:
- Accepted that I'm going to break these resolutions. Often. But Monday is a new work day for me to get back at this non-emotional goal of mine.
- Apologized to my son for losing my temper (and momentary sanity) but also explained why I got so upset so we both could learn from the situation.
- Finished the PowerPoint causing the tears. Sometimes just fighting through the frustration is the best cure.
- Offered a mea-culpa to all other living things in this house via dog treats, pathetic looks and free hugs.
- Issued myself a little bit of slack for not being perfect.
I will be happy to see today come to a close. Tomorrow is a new day.
Oh and the *BBC... that = 'bitches be crazy.' I not only can translate BBC but if you ask my husband, I could be a founding member to this language. However that, my friends, is a whole blog post topic for another day.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone. xo